My Life Last Whole Week

Last week Monday was my competency appraisal week. Competency ratings are what my company bases on for a staff’s annual increment. Since hearing the news about appraisal week, my tummy was just growling like a hungry tiger hunting for its prey. The stress and anticipation of the wait only contributed in me going up and down the toilet. Sorry I guess that was too much detail for you. Hehehe

Anyway on Friday my boss called me in at 4pm. My whole appraisal lasted 1 ½ hours. We spoke but nothing was argued. Though he did not give me high marks, his approach was definitely softer than my Ex-boss. I thought to myself no point arguing because I’ll not say I have the perfect character. Right after that I rushed for a cab to church because I was leading Praise & Worship last Sunday. Practice seemed Ok and reached home 10pm and straight went to bed.

On Saturday I went to work to learn something from the housing unit. Worked till 2.30 and left to Mid Valley’s Chilli’s to meet my friend Anita. We both shared the triple play but Anita paid for it. Hehe. Thanks ANITA! For the first time I had Red Wine. Before meeting Anita I went to Maybank to withdraw money. First I went to the ATM to withdraw the last 40 in my account but unfortunately the ATM only allows 50 at one go. So what I did was, I walked to the cash deposit machine and deposited RM10 and then again walked to the ATM and withdraw RM50! I’m sure many of you are going “haiyo”!, right? Well I can now imagine the security guard’s face just staring at me like I’m some loose nut around. Hehe. Definitely my most embarrassing moment. Ermmm actually it is one of my most embarrassing moment!. Hmm perhaps I should open a blog on my most embarrassing moments and I’m sure to have a list of it. That would be another post to ponder. Anyway after withdrawing the money I walked straight to Chilli’s and to my surprise I saw Suren sitting with a cute German guy. He looked at me rather surprised! In my head I just hope the surprise look was for him realizing I’ve lost weight! – hehe perasan me!!!

Ok, WHO is SUREN?, many will ask. Well he’s the PILOT nephew of my friend and ex-colleague – the late aunty Vasanta. Anyway so I walked in and headed the bar side and saw Anita as usual with her book and a drink. The place was really crowded that we had to sit at the bar. Well since Anita belanja the triple play, I only paid for my wine and movie. Gosh the tickets for RushHour3 was RM12 this time around!. Anyway at 3.45 we walked to GSC. This is the first time I’m actually drinking Red Wine unlike my usual White Wine, the minute I walked out, everything was moving. That was really bad. The first thing I did when I reached GSC was to buy myself a mineral bottle and a Snickers bar. The minute I dumped my ass on the C12 sitting, I quickly opened the Snickers and started munching while drinking water and WALLA! Situation was under control!

I reached home almost 7.45pm and headed straight to bed. The next morning I drove to church. As I was walking down the entrance of the church I realized my throat was just going haywire! My music notes were flying towards God knows which direction. Shortly I just stopped and did a small prayer and when I took lead of the Praise and Worship I thank God I got back my voice. I’m glad everything went well with church. That Sunday I just came back and slept like a pig to recover from the wine I had. Somehow I feel that the wine effect is still working in me. But then again it could be my imagination…….

Wonder what this week has in store for me! He he

It's all about Me ... THE HEART!

No one will know how excited I was this morning. Though excited, I got a little worried because it was closing to 9.30am and I still did not see the freaking sign of the bus to Butterworth!. The blood vessels started heating things up to make me pound harder and harder. The excitement and restlessness could be seen in the eyes and the forehead of the holder. Suddenly I started beating at normal 120/80 reading with a sense of relief when the eyes saw the CONSORTIUM BUS to Butterworth!


The legs walked, found its seat. And the bum rested at its place. The hands removed a purple book from the beg. Zillions of thoughts running through the brains but the hands somehow were stuck. I stand here still at 120/80, getting very cozy and comfortable. Suddenly the eyes opened and I started pumping faster. It was the bus stopping for people to go to the toilet. The legs walked, the hands did its thing and when all was done, the bum took its place again. The eyes dropped again and I was at calm till the legs walked down the bus at the Juru exit. The journey
was so cool. I saw greenery through the eyes. It all somehow relaxed my heavy burden with the busy life I've had back in KL..


The legs entered the house. The eyes showed me a big house, well kept. I was coolly beating as normal at 120/80. Suddenly after 7 hours I started beating restlessly. Not sure what to do.. the legs and the arms started walking up and down, not sure where to stop. The eyes started feeling shy. There he came, this dark tall shining knight. He was easily 6ft tall, dark, short wavy graying hair, dark black eyes with long eye lashes. All of a sudden the eyes met and I became shy, a warm fuzzy feeling came over me... it was like an electric wave within the veins. No words utttered only the eyes spoke of shyness and as for me I was beating at 120/80 as well as 180/110... all for a good reason.

I wonder if she's in love all over again!.................

Freedom and Fear

A friend once advised me not to be bothered about the world when you blog. Your blog should be your right! Write whatever you want! I even had friends complimenting me for my braveness and boldness telling me how friends should accept someone for what they really are – just as themselves. Yet at times I wonder if I have done the right thing by telling my friends that I have a blog.

At the very start of my blogging days I remember the excitement and also the rate of my heart beat. Each time I saw someone leaving me a comment my eyes just opens wide and my face glows all bright. Days pass the brightness got dimmer and dimmer. All of a sudden I’m running. My behavior of a run is visibly seen upon the frequency of me changing my blog addresses and also maintaining a dual blog to represent split personalities of myself!

I loose two things by running away from blogging. Firstly the credibility and support from friends because they get really bored with the idea of knowing me with different web addresses and the other is I miss having blog anniversaries. I just so envy all those who soundly have many blog anniversaries. Well I blame myself actually because I fear the fear of revealing too much.

Many people I care about reads my blog these days. One thing I know for sure is that even though they are not commenting, they sure are keeping in touch with my life by reading my blog. Knowing this how can I blog about the person who reads this blog? Yes I can change the person’s name and give them an imaginary one, but towards the end of the day the person whom I’m blogging about would in a way know it’s them!! I wonder now where does the freedom of me blogging go now!?

When I’m angry sometimes I write stuffs as to how angry and sad I am. I’m just being bold, brutal and upright but I just don’t want anyone getting hurt by my brutal honestly.

Maybe I should ask all those who reads my blog to comment in the blog and not to ask me about it in reality. Let the blog life be a debate on the blog life so it does not affect the reality life. Yet I know some things are easier said than done. Human’s feelings and thoughts are things we think we can control but we can’t. Until we see, read and feel with the story, no one can predict and say “THIS is how I’m going to react!!!!”.

I’m not sure where this post is heading. Will I blog about my current thoughts or hurt that’s been bugging me?…. Probably I would, BUT AGAIN!, I’m running from FEAR. The FEAR of HURTING someone I CARE and LOVE!

Maxis Call Center

If you’re using the Hotlink service then you’d know what I mean with this blog. Anyway just an overview and don’t think that I’m publicizing for Hotlink. So Hotlink works these days with merit points. If you top up RM10 then you’ll have 20 points and if it’s RM30, you’ll have 60 points. Basically I think the points are times two of what you reload into your account. For every 100 points you can either redeem RM1 talk time or 50 free sms to numbers within the same network. So 3 weeks ago I tried redeeming the points for 50 free sms. I was told that due to their system being upgraded my points will delay till after the 23rd. So yesterday was the 26th and I was loosing my patience that I decided to call Maxis call centre. So here is the conversation….

Man : Good evening, thank you for calling Maxis Call Centre. How may I help you this is X.
Me : Hi X I’m Y and I’m calling due to problems in the redemption of points.
X : Yes Ms. Y I’m sorry that our service is still upgrading and it would only revive in two weeks
Me : Two weeks!!!!?
X : Yes Ms Y. By the way are you Indian?
Me : Yes I am! Why I sound like a foreigner is it!? ( rather harshly I asked him).
X : Oh I’m an Indian too
Me : Oh well Vanakam( hi in tamil) then.

That guy actually spoke to me in tamil for a while and started being cute and naughty and flirty. I was not sure to be rude, nice or to laugh the whole thing. After he being really help X told me that there will be a customer evaluation form I need to reply as to his service. I told him I’m going to rate him 1 (poorest marking scheme). And then he said “ 5 la Miss”. And I quickly replied “5 means u owes me lunch” and he replied “NO PROBLEM”.

Anyway I rated him 5 because he was really sweet and helpful. Anyway I know for a sure he’s not going to call me and buy me lunch or anything. But it was worth a laugh towards end of it because the week had been truly stressful!

My Saturday (Again)

I can’t believe my long written blog about my Saturday just vanished into cyber space. Who am I to blame? Is it the cyber world or the earthquake in Taiwan? I guess I’ll just have to blame myself for having over confidence on this unreliable system. So here I am rewriting everything. Hopefully it is as good as or better than the previous post.

So it’s Saturday and everyone is asleep but I’m stuck at work. It’s already sad enough that we don’t get paid anything to work but I guess some things just never change! Work is Work and whether you like it or not you just got to DO! So I worked my ass off till about 4.00pm. At 4.15 my dad picked me up and we drove to Banting for my niece’s 21st Birthday function. I’m 28 this year and I have a big niece!!! Gee it didn’t strike me in the beginning but it does now. Well anyway Karen is my cousin’s daughter. The whole thing is just so cute. I have other nieces and nephews. The cutest part of it all is that all of them call me either Chitti (mother’s sister) or Athai (father’s sister). A part of me becomes old at that point of time but I did not mind one bit because I feel like I’m respected and love. I know it all sounds too weird but I guess it’s just a nice fuzzy feeling I have. The food was great, the music and the people were all just great. My cousin really did pull up a great gathering for his daughter I would say. I will admit there were many cute guys… but sad no one my age!! All thambis (younger brothers) la… Cheh!! Sad Sad… hehehe Anyway that’s what cuci mata is all about right?

Overall I will say that my niece who is taller than me looked great with her black gown. She looked really pretty! I have a picture of me and her. For now it will be on my friendster account since blogging picture’s here is a little too complicated for me. Anyway I shall try my level best. It was good to see my other cousin’s boyfriend attending family functions. I guess Sandy is now officially announced to be a part of the family since my aunty and uncle have officially announced that Sandy will be the future son in law! I’m so happy for them both. It’s cute that I learnt a secret about Sandy from my cousin. It seems he snores a lot. Hehehe I told them I’ll get them a muffler as a wedding present. He was annoyed but in a rather cute way.

Next week Saturday I’ll be in Klang for the 100th year celebration of St.Barnabas church. What happens then will be another blog.

I got home at 10.30pm on Saturday. It was a nice great outing with my cousins and loved ones. Can’t wait for next week’s gathering!

Cheers all…

I asked a good friend how did he start his New Year's and he replied "With my loved ones". When paused the same question back I told him I got drunk. He then replied, "good la, this is how you are going to spend your 2007... being drunk 3/4 of the year". I was so pist mad with him. Thankfully it was a phone conversation and not a life one or I'd sure to have kick his butt.

When I got home I started thinking about what he said and I realized I'm NOT going to be drunk 3/4 of the year but I'm going to be in church 3/4 of the year because I started my New Year not being drunk but more of being in Church!. Gosh..... me being an angel!? I'm sure many toes are laughing at this moment! If only they knew me! Hehehehehehe

Love you all....

and G, I'm no DRUNK! :)

History Created by Friends for 2007

HAPPIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!! Wow so fast 2006 passed. I just got back today at 4.00am. Church took that long this year. The whole service was funny. We have a new priest and things were different. I managed to catch the fire crackers high in the air from the back balcony of the church. I would say it was all good. To my surprise even my praise and worship leading was a success. Big HIT! What a blessing to start the New Year in church.

Well I got up at almost 9.00am and saw a message from my friend Suresh asking me what time we (Anita, Suresh and Me) are meeting? Immediately I called him to tell him I just got up and he was surprised because he was already all set to meet. Anyway managed to tell my mother I’m leaving early and so I took the 11am train. Suresh was waiting for me and Anita in Midvalley. He managed to book the tickets for the movie “A night at the Museum”.

So it was 12pm when Anita met Suresh and me at the food court. I had watermelon juicy. Yummy! Now we had a situation. It was time for lunch. I’m known for being the queen of fast food or Indian food. I don’t eat anything else but fast food most of the time. There I sat being lectured by both of my good friends as to what type of person can I be, without even trying any other food like Spanish, Italian, Thai and etc. I’ve been getting this nagging since 2006 and thought yeah why not I just shut my mouth and thoughts by agreeing to have Thai food. So we went to this Thai restaurant in Midvalley. It was good. Though I’ll admit the Tom Yam was too spicy for me. But it was alright.

After lunch it was time for the movie. The movie was hilarious. I’d say this movie is definitely something you got to watch! Before the movie started I just whispered towards Suresh saying, “thank you for lunch” and he replied “you’re most welcome”. That was my candid moment of one to one with Suresh, not forgetting the things I went through to keep this guy from sleeping in the theatre.

Okay now comes the biggest History in my entire life. I’m not bragging here or anything like that but this is the truth. I’ve never had wine nor drank beer or any alcohol in my whole entire life. After the movies, we took a drive to Sri Hartamas and ended up in Finnegan’s. I can’t believe myself that I, a person who has not touched alcohol before in her entire life had 3 glasses of white wine! I remember feeling very sleepy while in my second glass. My head just dropped down towards the table while Suresh was trying to keep me awake.

I drove home and reached home by 9.00pm. Thought of heading straight to bed but thought I should blog first. My father is already giving me that look that he smells something fishy with me. Anyway time to sleep. My friends are right; they have indeed created history in my life. Wonder if I can ever trust them again……………………………………. But they both still are angels to my heart!

Love you guys!

Last Day for 2006

So it’s New Year’s Eve. While the whole of Malaysia and the World sit today and draw up their New Year’s resolution, I sit here adamant of not drawing my own. I already see many eyebrows frowning giving me the look I scare most. The look that I could be crazy!? Just thought to myself, what’s the point of drawing up resolutions when you don’t stick to it!!!? It’s the same thing with me every year! Each resolution I make, I seem to be only breaking it instead of improving myself better! Down the road it’s the same old thing, the same old me! So I’ve decided to allow nature take its lead for 2007.

Anyway I got an sms from my friend Anita asking me if I was free to meet her and Suresh again for a drink and I said why not since it’s been sometime since we 3 Brady bunch met!. Suresh being his usual enthusiasm might plan for a driving trip to somewhere where we leave in the morning and return by night fall. I felt bad of making him drive around. As it is, it’s a sacrifice he is making to drive all the way from Johor to meet us girls in KL. So I decided movie. Hopefully we can get a booking.

Okay, time to go get ready to go to church. I’m feeling nervous for I’ll be leading in church for praise and worship tonight. Never really sung a Tamil song in public in years. Hopefully everything works out well. For you all have a nice party time celebrating the last hours of 2006!

Boxing Day!!!!

So it’s the 26th of December. It’s also known as the Boxing Day. While everyone has taken long leave till the New Year, here I am working. Management of your leave is also important… this is the lesson I learnt for this year. I use to take half days and Mc’s just to keep my friends company for a movie and towards the end, I’m not appreciated. One of my New Year’s resolutions is definitely going to be living my life the way I want it. But of course I don’t see that happening on the wide scale as I’m still wrapped under my parent’s roof.

After work today my colleagues and I visited my ex-colleague’s house. Aunty Devi passed away last month of heart problems. It’s just so devastating and still is for many of us. Anyway my colleagues and I just went for a visit to visit her son and her mother. It was indeed a very different visit this time. I was indeed shock to hear one of the stories Devi’s mother told me. It seems someone stole all off Aunty Devi’s jewelry on her 30th prayer day. Those were the jewelry that aunty last used before she passed. It was indeed shocking. I’ve always seen these things in Tamil movie in the comedy parts whereby the joker will pretend to be a dead man’s relative and he’d mourn and slowly try to steal the person’s possessions but never knew it was possible in the reality. I at times now wonder if it was stolen or genuinely went missing. Maybe the unseen has worked its way. Mysteries, only aunty Devi can answer if she was still alive.

I’m just happy to see the son smiling at me the usual way. I bought him Ferrero Chocolates. He loved it and thanked me. I remember teasing the small boy about wearing pants that were air conditioned. Actually he had a rip right at his private (smiles). It was cute. One minute I wished he was my age… could have had bigger imaginations! Geezzzz I must really be getting old!. Anyway I’m glad that even though Devi is gone, her sister in law has given us the green light to visit Kabilan (Devi’s son) anytime we wish. For this reason I’m happy.

We Wish U a Very Christmas!!!!

So Christmas came and went by. There are just so many things that took place on that day. I had many visitors. I even had visitors who just dropped by to say Hello. I’m glad Jeya brought his wife and son. It’s was so cool to finally have a conversation with his Mrs. In fact it is the first time I’m talking to her. If you are wondering who is Jeya, then you should read my previous post of me attending his wedding… my ex classmate. Of course Anu came. Then I had Sugu Anne and his wife and his son, Prema brought her brother and her cousin sis whom I’ve not seen in donkey years. The house was practically crowded. I’m glad I had a nice Christmas. What a frustration that I have to work tomorrow because I don’t have any leave! Bummer