I can sense some screaming there "FINALLY SHE IS BLOGGING AGAIN!!!!!!!"... well there is just so many things happening in my life now and THEN that just slipped my mind and time to blog. Guess it's just something I got to do now on. Updates updates updates will be my first aim.
Can't believe after months that i realize today that there are just too many features to choose and change in this blog. Really cool I would say. Guess will be lots of blogging, exploring and lalalalala's now on.......
So, stay tune cause I'm BACK!!!! OH BABY YEAH I'M BACK FOR GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODddddddddddddddddddddd
Monday, 1 September 2008
Wednesday, 23 April 2008
Weird
“Some people come into our life and quickly go and leave footprints on our hearts and we are never ever the same after that”
That was the status statement updated in one of my friend’s facebook account recently and I so agree to it. This year has been challenging for me. I’ve somehow grown closer to a friend whom I only meet once a year and I’ve known him for 4 years now. I’d say that the friendship was good though we met less. After a good 4 years suddenly one sms that says “…………this is the beginning of the end” ends it all.
My God!? What did I do wrong!? It was truly a tsunami that hit my life without any warning. After 4 years he says I’ve been annoying and irritating. I sat and wondered… Yes I’ll admit that I’ve been irritating and a little annoying but it wasn’t done in a hurtful manner but more playfully and fun because he replies and encourages the smses!!! I believe he should have given me a warning so I’ll know what to expect and what was his tolerance level.
A mutual friend whom I got to know through my so called “ex friend” now, told me to just sit back and relax and just to let my “ex friend” go. Here begins my problem. I care too much for every friendship I get into that I take the blame for everything even though I know that it’s not my fault! How do I grow when one doesn’t tell me my weakness to improve? When a mistake made is not questioned, how will I know it’s a problem???
The some time the friends who do tell me my problems on the other hand do not consider the environment we are in. I’ve always told friends I’m sad with them through a sms or even corner them in person when they are alone in order for others not to look badly at me or this particular friend… Flaring in front of people is just not my style
I guess above all I just need to stop now. I’m not bothered of what others think of me already. If you can’t accept me the way I am then so be it! Accept or Leave. Time has come for me to stop caring for people. It’s not time to care for Myself!!! And so starts another name now for me!! PERASAN or SELFISHNESS……….. Damn! Life is just so unfair. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
That was the status statement updated in one of my friend’s facebook account recently and I so agree to it. This year has been challenging for me. I’ve somehow grown closer to a friend whom I only meet once a year and I’ve known him for 4 years now. I’d say that the friendship was good though we met less. After a good 4 years suddenly one sms that says “…………this is the beginning of the end” ends it all.
My God!? What did I do wrong!? It was truly a tsunami that hit my life without any warning. After 4 years he says I’ve been annoying and irritating. I sat and wondered… Yes I’ll admit that I’ve been irritating and a little annoying but it wasn’t done in a hurtful manner but more playfully and fun because he replies and encourages the smses!!! I believe he should have given me a warning so I’ll know what to expect and what was his tolerance level.
A mutual friend whom I got to know through my so called “ex friend” now, told me to just sit back and relax and just to let my “ex friend” go. Here begins my problem. I care too much for every friendship I get into that I take the blame for everything even though I know that it’s not my fault! How do I grow when one doesn’t tell me my weakness to improve? When a mistake made is not questioned, how will I know it’s a problem???
The some time the friends who do tell me my problems on the other hand do not consider the environment we are in. I’ve always told friends I’m sad with them through a sms or even corner them in person when they are alone in order for others not to look badly at me or this particular friend… Flaring in front of people is just not my style
I guess above all I just need to stop now. I’m not bothered of what others think of me already. If you can’t accept me the way I am then so be it! Accept or Leave. Time has come for me to stop caring for people. It’s not time to care for Myself!!! And so starts another name now for me!! PERASAN or SELFISHNESS……….. Damn! Life is just so unfair. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Tuesday, 22 April 2008
Long time
Hey there,
It's been truly some time since I last blogged. I'll try to get myself back in track in the next few days. SO many things been happening that words are just something I can't make out to express. So much to bear yet very little and tiny heart.... More to come in the next post......
Till then hope all is well and fine with you all...
God Bless
It's been truly some time since I last blogged. I'll try to get myself back in track in the next few days. SO many things been happening that words are just something I can't make out to express. So much to bear yet very little and tiny heart.... More to come in the next post......
Till then hope all is well and fine with you all...
God Bless
Saturday, 9 February 2008
FINALLY
Wow, FINALLY today after a month of getting my streamyz and laptop, I'm actually doing the first thing I planned initially when I got this thingy which was to type out all my handwritten stuff and keep a copy in the computer. Probably will print it all out when I get back to the office. I can't believe how much of writing I've done over the years. Some weirdly I don't remember to whom I wrote it too or at what situation I wrote it too.. It is mostly poems.
My friend was telling me yesterday how she missed writing. Hmm I guess I’m going to complete my short story written too. It’s always a romance fantasy kind in my case. Probably I should trying being an Asian version of Judith Mcnaught. Hai, another hot air dream that will never be a reality. Well I’ll just write for myself for now.......
My friend was telling me yesterday how she missed writing. Hmm I guess I’m going to complete my short story written too. It’s always a romance fantasy kind in my case. Probably I should trying being an Asian version of Judith Mcnaught. Hai, another hot air dream that will never be a reality. Well I’ll just write for myself for now.......
Friday, 1 February 2008
Birthday Tribute
Happy Birthday Andrew
God Bless you always and thanks for being a friend all these years.
God Bless you always and thanks for being a friend all these years.
Wednesday, 16 January 2008
Just out of my usual
Have you ever felt like a looser at work in your life? Well that’s how I feel at this point of time. I feel like I’m a BA holder who can’t think of this simple point! My boss called me asking me what I thought about something today. As usual being ME, I twisted the whole thing to my point. Along came another two ladies into the picture all banging my boss head. Finally when I sat down with some friends talking about it, I realized I’ve been doing my work all WRONG for the past 4 months!!!!
At this point of time I feel so frustrated. No point pointing fingers as to who has made the mistake. I got to take full responsibility of my actions. Just that now I have to identify the files I’ve done wrong.
It’s just so frustrating. I’m already having a very bad mouth ulcer and now to add things worst THIS!!! God have mercy on me please.
At this point of time I feel so frustrated. No point pointing fingers as to who has made the mistake. I got to take full responsibility of my actions. Just that now I have to identify the files I’ve done wrong.
It’s just so frustrating. I’m already having a very bad mouth ulcer and now to add things worst THIS!!! God have mercy on me please.
Monday, 14 January 2008
Birthday Tribute
Today is my cousin Janet's birthday. I almost forgot to wish her. Anyway I hope that God blesses her with everything she desires.I hope her macho man got her something interesting hehe
And to Gerard another friend... Happy Birthday and God bless U
And to Gerard another friend... Happy Birthday and God bless U
Saturday, 5 January 2008
Birthday Tribute
Today is my collegue Thiru's birthday. Can't believe he's already 29! Well soon I'll be there too. But I guess for now I'll just dedicate this space for him and May God bless Him in all he does
Friday, 4 January 2008
My Work Anniversary
I’m like a walking zombie this morning. Well what can you expect from someone who only slept at 3am! I know it’s my own self infliction that I can’t put the blame on anyone else.
Anyway, today marks an important date in my career life. I started my career life in 06.05.2002 as a contract staff. Beginning 03.01.2005 I was absorbed to be a permanent staff. Along the way, I did my degree on a part time basis. I was a very playful student in my younger days that I only managed an advance diploma in International Business Administration.
After gaining my parents trust again, I did my attempt for a degree the second time around in Business Administration. I took PTPTN loan as a sense of security of not wasting my dad’s money. By the Grace of God I graduated with Second Class (Hons). A relief on my face the minute I knew my results. I still remember my dad’s voice on the phone when I told him my results. He was moved into tears. I remember my mum’s reaction on my graduation day and that’s something that will go down in history where my life is concerned.
Today marks history because I’ve served 3 years as a permanent staff and looking forward to move up the leader of career by applying for the post of an exec in my organization. There is a pre-requisite here that you’ve got to serve 3 years before getting a promotion. I guess I can now go all out to search and climb myself in life….
Anyway, today marks an important date in my career life. I started my career life in 06.05.2002 as a contract staff. Beginning 03.01.2005 I was absorbed to be a permanent staff. Along the way, I did my degree on a part time basis. I was a very playful student in my younger days that I only managed an advance diploma in International Business Administration.
After gaining my parents trust again, I did my attempt for a degree the second time around in Business Administration. I took PTPTN loan as a sense of security of not wasting my dad’s money. By the Grace of God I graduated with Second Class (Hons). A relief on my face the minute I knew my results. I still remember my dad’s voice on the phone when I told him my results. He was moved into tears. I remember my mum’s reaction on my graduation day and that’s something that will go down in history where my life is concerned.
Today marks history because I’ve served 3 years as a permanent staff and looking forward to move up the leader of career by applying for the post of an exec in my organization. There is a pre-requisite here that you’ve got to serve 3 years before getting a promotion. I guess I can now go all out to search and climb myself in life….
Thursday, 3 January 2008
Streamyx and Laptop
So, my company just paid our bonus and guess what I did with it? Well Yup, there I went with my brothers and parents on the eve of Christmas and we purchased a Dell cheap Laptop. Well cheap or expensive "janji" it was a laptop and I was really excited that today I got my streamyx lines hooked up.
Gosh it's been one year since I last chatted on MIRC, MSN or YM. The first thing I did today was I got all my chat programs downloaded and away I went into every program and rooms screaming silently up in my head "I'm back!!!! I'M BACK!!! BEWARE OF ME!!" hehehehe
Now I'm excited, when end of the month the streamyx bill comes sure I'll be, "HAIYO!!!!!! BUDGET LARI LA KAWAN!" :p hehehehe Norm of life I guess! Nothing is ever enough
Gosh it's been one year since I last chatted on MIRC, MSN or YM. The first thing I did today was I got all my chat programs downloaded and away I went into every program and rooms screaming silently up in my head "I'm back!!!! I'M BACK!!! BEWARE OF ME!!" hehehehe
Now I'm excited, when end of the month the streamyx bill comes sure I'll be, "HAIYO!!!!!! BUDGET LARI LA KAWAN!" :p hehehehe Norm of life I guess! Nothing is ever enough
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