A Lesson Well Learnt

I stayed out the last two days and that has taught me a lot about things. My overall summary would be, NEVER make myself too low or beg to get things and never trust anyone's words. MONEY is always the insight of true friendships and character testing. In blunt, never trust anyone. If anyone wants anything from you, let them do the search, let them do the run, let them do the beg,plead and cry. I shall bow no more. I shall hurt no more. I shall stop it all. It's time to change the wind and wheel. Some may be wondering what I'm blabbering about here but for some..... you should know what I mean................

Experiment

Hi there ,....

please bear with me as i explore and choose the right settings for my blog. I recently found out that we can actually change and edit the display settings... it's really cool causing more confusions as to what I want now. So bear with me as this experiment goes on and off.....

No idea....

My life with friends has been on a roller coaster lately. I just don’t know what I am doing wrong. When I confided in a friend, he said I’m just thinking too much and being a paranoid and overly sensitive. Maybe I am. Guess it’s time to be selfish. Weird, whenever I make a decision like this I still always get back to square one. Wish I had a punching bag with me to punch me back to reality each time I try to turn back the old sensitive me ways.

But one thing I’m happy is that, when I talk it out in a more relaxed way, things get solved rather than add some minor injuries like headache in the head and heart ache. I’m just typing here and not sure what this blog is all about……..

BIRTHDAY TRIBUTE

Happy Birthday Eswaran.....

MY FIRST EULOGY WRITING

MS LILY PAKIAM PONNIAH (18/09/1946 - 07/09/2008)


Good morning everyone. I stand here representing the family thanking everyone for your presence to my Athai’s funeral service. Miss Pakiam Ponniah or many would know her as Lily is my dad’s sister.

Lily Athai was born on Sept 18th 1946 in Banting. She is the 5th child in the family of 5 girls and 3 boys. Athai used to work for a company called UMW in Shah Alam.

It does not matter how we relate to Athai. For some among us, she’s a sister, for some an aunt, a grandma, a relative, a friend… but one thing about her that we would all agree on is that, she’s a gem of a person.

Lily Athai is a very friendly person. She could connect to anyone easily. She has always been the perfect host too. None of us went to visit her in her home ever left with a hungry stomach. She’s always happy to serve, cook and entertain everyone who visited her. She was never once selfish and always caress for everyone around her. She was like a friend at most time with everyone. The joy on her face is something I will remember and I’m sure you will too. I see her smile even as I speak.

She was like a mother to many especially her siblings and us – her nephews and nieces. She’s always advising and giving ideas on how to handle situations. She was definitely the shoulder to cry on for the some of us. A very kind woman who spoke her mind to resolve things but never took anything to heart. A very forgiving natured person she was.

Athai had a passion for writing. She has written Tamil articles for magazines, Tamil newspapers and some Christian magazines too. She was a very strong, brave and a very diet conscious person too. You should know if you saw how smooth her skin and how slim. Her recipe to healthy living is “Never take food from stalls. Cook at home it’s healthy”. She was indeed a great cook too.

Among all the great things to say about Athai, the greatest would be that she was a faithful servant and witness of Christ. She used to teach Sunday school in Carey Island and Batang Berjuntai in her younger days. It did not matter to her where she was, “CHRIST” and “JESUS”S LOVE” will always be a topic she never missed. Even when she was in the hospital, she ministered to most of the people around her. And that TRUE love for GOD and her faithfulness is something I’ll say has set a TRUE CHRISTIAN LIVING EXAMPLE.

Sept 7th, 12.15am, we received the news, we have lost Lily Athai. The news came up to us all like a shocking wave. But we know she has not gone far for she has returned to our heavenly Father’s home. Lily Athai, we will all miss you greatly today. The memories we’ve had will be cherished. Athai has fulfilled the bible verse 2 Timothy Chapter 4 verse 7, “I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith”. May her soul rest in peace.

BIRTHDAY TRIBUTE

HARPIEEEE BIRTHDAY JANAGI AKKA!!!!!

GRADUATION WISHES

To My darling cousin Janet whom I'm sure will read this at one point..... Congrads girl on your convocation and God Bless you in everything you do and May you shine in all you set your heart and soul in.


Love,
Akka :)

BIRTHDAY TRIBUTE

Happy Birthday Mr Yong and Karen mummy..... God bless you both

STUCK and Birthday Wishes

For some reason I'm just all jammed and not sure what to write about since I've started blogging back. Gosh I just hope I can do something ..............

Anyway I think since I'm stuck I'll take this time to recognize 3 people who celebrates their birthday today

1) My cousin Vijay
2) My neighbour Aunty Nerumala Devi
3) My friend, Gerard..

Happy Birthday U guyz and God Bless Always

LOVE!!!!!!

No idea when this is going to hit me. But I just pray and hope it's going to be soon.......

Nite nite now....

I'M FINALLY BACK!!!

I can sense some screaming there "FINALLY SHE IS BLOGGING AGAIN!!!!!!!"... well there is just so many things happening in my life now and THEN that just slipped my mind and time to blog. Guess it's just something I got to do now on. Updates updates updates will be my first aim.

Can't believe after months that i realize today that there are just too many features to choose and change in this blog. Really cool I would say. Guess will be lots of blogging, exploring and lalalalala's now on.......

So, stay tune cause I'm BACK!!!! OH BABY YEAH I'M BACK FOR GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODddddddddddddddddddddd

Weird

“Some people come into our life and quickly go and leave footprints on our hearts and we are never ever the same after that”

That was the status statement updated in one of my friend’s facebook account recently and I so agree to it. This year has been challenging for me. I’ve somehow grown closer to a friend whom I only meet once a year and I’ve known him for 4 years now. I’d say that the friendship was good though we met less. After a good 4 years suddenly one sms that says “…………this is the beginning of the end” ends it all.

My God!? What did I do wrong!? It was truly a tsunami that hit my life without any warning. After 4 years he says I’ve been annoying and irritating. I sat and wondered… Yes I’ll admit that I’ve been irritating and a little annoying but it wasn’t done in a hurtful manner but more playfully and fun because he replies and encourages the smses!!! I believe he should have given me a warning so I’ll know what to expect and what was his tolerance level.

A mutual friend whom I got to know through my so called “ex friend” now, told me to just sit back and relax and just to let my “ex friend” go. Here begins my problem. I care too much for every friendship I get into that I take the blame for everything even though I know that it’s not my fault! How do I grow when one doesn’t tell me my weakness to improve? When a mistake made is not questioned, how will I know it’s a problem???

The some time the friends who do tell me my problems on the other hand do not consider the environment we are in. I’ve always told friends I’m sad with them through a sms or even corner them in person when they are alone in order for others not to look badly at me or this particular friend… Flaring in front of people is just not my style

I guess above all I just need to stop now. I’m not bothered of what others think of me already. If you can’t accept me the way I am then so be it! Accept or Leave. Time has come for me to stop caring for people. It’s not time to care for Myself!!! And so starts another name now for me!! PERASAN or SELFISHNESS……….. Damn! Life is just so unfair. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Long time

Hey there,

It's been truly some time since I last blogged. I'll try to get myself back in track in the next few days. SO many things been happening that words are just something I can't make out to express. So much to bear yet very little and tiny heart.... More to come in the next post......

Till then hope all is well and fine with you all...

God Bless

FINALLY

Wow, FINALLY today after a month of getting my streamyz and laptop, I'm actually doing the first thing I planned initially when I got this thingy which was to type out all my handwritten stuff and keep a copy in the computer. Probably will print it all out when I get back to the office. I can't believe how much of writing I've done over the years. Some weirdly I don't remember to whom I wrote it too or at what situation I wrote it too.. It is mostly poems.

My friend was telling me yesterday how she missed writing. Hmm I guess I’m going to complete my short story written too. It’s always a romance fantasy kind in my case. Probably I should trying being an Asian version of Judith Mcnaught. Hai, another hot air dream that will never be a reality. Well I’ll just write for myself for now.......

Birthday Tribute

Happy Birthday Andrew

God Bless you always and thanks for being a friend all these years.

Just out of my usual

Have you ever felt like a looser at work in your life? Well that’s how I feel at this point of time. I feel like I’m a BA holder who can’t think of this simple point! My boss called me asking me what I thought about something today. As usual being ME, I twisted the whole thing to my point. Along came another two ladies into the picture all banging my boss head. Finally when I sat down with some friends talking about it, I realized I’ve been doing my work all WRONG for the past 4 months!!!!

At this point of time I feel so frustrated. No point pointing fingers as to who has made the mistake. I got to take full responsibility of my actions. Just that now I have to identify the files I’ve done wrong.

It’s just so frustrating. I’m already having a very bad mouth ulcer and now to add things worst THIS!!! God have mercy on me please.

Birthday Tribute

Today is my cousin Janet's birthday. I almost forgot to wish her. Anyway I hope that God blesses her with everything she desires.I hope her macho man got her something interesting hehe

And to Gerard another friend... Happy Birthday and God bless U

Birthday Tribute

Today is my collegue Thiru's birthday. Can't believe he's already 29! Well soon I'll be there too. But I guess for now I'll just dedicate this space for him and May God bless Him in all he does

My Work Anniversary

I’m like a walking zombie this morning. Well what can you expect from someone who only slept at 3am! I know it’s my own self infliction that I can’t put the blame on anyone else.

Anyway, today marks an important date in my career life. I started my career life in 06.05.2002 as a contract staff. Beginning 03.01.2005 I was absorbed to be a permanent staff. Along the way, I did my degree on a part time basis. I was a very playful student in my younger days that I only managed an advance diploma in International Business Administration.

After gaining my parents trust again, I did my attempt for a degree the second time around in Business Administration. I took PTPTN loan as a sense of security of not wasting my dad’s money. By the Grace of God I graduated with Second Class (Hons). A relief on my face the minute I knew my results. I still remember my dad’s voice on the phone when I told him my results. He was moved into tears. I remember my mum’s reaction on my graduation day and that’s something that will go down in history where my life is concerned.

Today marks history because I’ve served 3 years as a permanent staff and looking forward to move up the leader of career by applying for the post of an exec in my organization. There is a pre-requisite here that you’ve got to serve 3 years before getting a promotion. I guess I can now go all out to search and climb myself in life….

Streamyx and Laptop

So, my company just paid our bonus and guess what I did with it? Well Yup, there I went with my brothers and parents on the eve of Christmas and we purchased a Dell cheap Laptop. Well cheap or expensive "janji" it was a laptop and I was really excited that today I got my streamyx lines hooked up.

Gosh it's been one year since I last chatted on MIRC, MSN or YM. The first thing I did today was I got all my chat programs downloaded and away I went into every program and rooms screaming silently up in my head "I'm back!!!! I'M BACK!!! BEWARE OF ME!!" hehehehe

Now I'm excited, when end of the month the streamyx bill comes sure I'll be, "HAIYO!!!!!! BUDGET LARI LA KAWAN!" :p hehehehe Norm of life I guess! Nothing is ever enough

2008

So today is the 1st of January 2008. It's funny how some feel very energized over the fact of NEW YEAR when the fact remains that 2007 was just yesterday! Well I was talking about 31st December 2007 of course. It's really amazing how the one end number makes a BIG difference for so many people.

Well I'm sure many of your would have had a piled up resolutions after resolutions for this coming 2008. To me this New Year is something special because I'm finally getting a grip of myself to overcome my sadness of loosing my precious handphone and wallet. I've lost all contacts and just hope somehow all them will message me soon so I can start a standard reply message that says, "hi, thanks for your message... errr who's this please... i'm sorry i've lost my phone and therefore have no details of your contact... so can you please reply me. thanks"... geesssss just when i thought new year was going to be new, I still have to relate to my past sadness.....

What have I lined up for 2008 many will ask but I guess I'm too sad now to write on that now... I guess Happy New Year you all and God bless you with all your inner most desires.....

This is What Blogspot would write to me.... A Welcome Note To Myself

Dear Anonymous,

We thank you for your great interest in blogging. We hope blogspot would give you the freedom to write whatever you want without being afraid of who knows you and what people would think about you if you be transparent. Your heading for your blog “My World” should be your stepping zone to an insight of just speaking out your inner thoughts, fears and dreams. We hope you’d not change your lifestyle and blogging address more often then you’ve done all these while. Glad to have you on board and we wish you the very best on your daily activities.



With love,
Blogspot (on behalf of all your fellow blogger and non blogger friends)